“Starting a travel blog in 2014? Are you mad?!” the voice in my head questions constantly. “It’s a saturated market! You’ll never be successful! What a waste of time! Now go and eat a doughnut to make yourself feel better.”
I guess to start a travel blog nowadays you need to be a little mad. Every day I log on to Twitter and I’m bombarded with hundreds of links about hundreds of places from hundreds of websites. It’s overwhelming. How could anybody be successful with so many competitors out there? It’s impossible surely.
Every time I have an idea for a blog post, something that I have experience with, I type the idea into Google. Pages and pages of results come back to me. It’s almost too much to bear. Should I even bother to give guidance or my opinion when a thousand others have already said everything that can be said? “You’re wasting your time! Why bother?” that critical voice shouts loudly at me.
“Why bother?” I reply back defeated. “Why bother?”
Good question–why bother? Whatever I write will surely only be an echo of others. However as I think more on that question, the more it pulls me under.
Why bother to do anything at all? Why get up in the morning? Why eat? Why drink? Why bother to be myself when there’s already so many other versions of me out there? Why, why, why?
In the past, I had no answer to this question. It left me depressed. Nowadays, I’m a little happier but still the answer evades me. I’m sick of that voice though. Who the hell is that voice? It must be me…it’s in my head…I’m controlling it.
Really that voice isn’t me though, it’s a combination of a bunch of voices I’ve heard all my life. It’s every apathetic teacher I had at school, it’s my father cynically believing I can’t succeed, it’s the whole world around me. I’m sick of this apathetic attitude so many of us have nowadays, the constant muttering of “Whatever!”
To that voice, I say,“Fuck you!” Why should I live my entire life based around what other people think? Why should I fail, or do nothing because it’s what others expect of me? Possibly it’s better to fail and do what you want to do than to do nothing at all.
Belief is a hard thing to come by these days, I can just about believe in this blog. Maybe I have to believe in it to prove to those people that they are wrong.
“Why not do something else? Something easier? Something with a better chance of success?” Another good question. Simply because I like to write, I love to blog. I’ve been blogging for over 10 years now in some shape or form and I always come back to it, so it must have something to it.
I’ve also come to realise that there’s something missing out there when it comes to travel blogs. Something that I’ve always looked for.
Whenever I read a guide. It’s never written for me, it’s written for somebody else. Seasoned travelers, confident people.
Before going on any trip, I have a thousand questions running through my head and I can never seem to find an answer because these are the questions others don’t ask themselves. Before going to a restaurant in Korea I was obsessed with how you pay. Do you ask for a bill? Do you wait for a bill? Do you get up to pay? Do you tip? How much do you tip? What do you say when you leave? All of these questions were never answered and without those answers I lacked the confidence to go into restaurants. I like to know about situations before I get into them otherwise I just feel awkward and anxious.
This site is for those anxious people. I want to create a blog with all the answers. Guides so in-depth that every possibility and problem is explained. Stories that allow you to see how I deal (or don’t deal) with situations. I want everybody out there who is scared to go to a Korean restaurant to conquer that fear.
It will sound silly to some. Those of you who can jump blindly into anything without a care in the world. It’s not silly to me though and hopefully it isn’t silly to a few others too.
“But…but…but,” the voice in my head is grasping for something, “isn’t this a bad idea? You want to create a travel site for people that are scared of traveling?”
I suppose the voice has got me there. Maybe this site won’t be a success, maybe it will drift away like so many others do. Maybe nothing will come of it all.
“As long as I help one person.” That’s what I tell myself. That’s what I truly want. As long as somebody out there reads the site and is better off because of it, then I’ll have succeeded.
The more people I help, the better.
The voice is silent.
Photo by Thomas Christensen